Lost in our life's

Many people lose family members in there life's. I lost my grandpa on Jan.11 09. That was the day i lose one of my family love ones. i remember his death like if it was yesterday. I do not like to remember his death because it makes me sad. I have hard time to sleep because I remember him. when i go over my aunts house i go to his room every time because that is where he died. I just could had not believe he left us. but that is just life. Who did you lose in your life and how did you feel?? ;[